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Sunday, July 30, 2006

My Mom and the Invisible Braking Pedal

This blog is all about me. It is the only thing on this planet that is purely about me. This is my little place to be selfish. This is the place I can say where I can say what I want to say, and as previously stated, if you don't like what I am saying - feel free to bugger off.

I have been reminiscing this past week about my experiences while learning to drive. It was a beautiful time in my life - although there was quite a lot happening otherwise. I was a 17-year old boy at the stage, I was in my 12th grade, or matric as we call it in South Africa.

My dad, at the time, was living in another province due to the run of events. He was retrenched from his job at the end of 1994 and had purchased a business in Humansdorp, Eastern Cape province, some 1200 km's distant from where we lived. It was, thus, largely up to my mom to handle my driving training. As a consequence, I am much more, in terms of driving style, my mother's child.

Any parent who has taught a child to drive will understand the stresses involved. I have never been a parent, but as a teacher, dealing with kids every day, I think I can relate to the experience. And I've had other people driving my car while sitting next to them - maybe that is the greater factor in my understanding and sympathy.

My mom would always sit next to me, watching the road ahead with a keen eye, and the speedometer from the corner of her right eye. In South Africa we drive on the left side of the road, consequently our cars are right-side steering and the passenger sits on the left-hand side of the driver.

She was a great driving teacher, never making undue comments and advising only when asked to - most of the time anyway. The strange thing, however, was the invisible braking pedal at her feet, because whenever she stepped on that brake pedal, the car would seem to slow down. Because my foot was, initially anyway, connected to hers. Later on it became a joke - I would remark that there was no brake pedal down there.

The funny thing is that, so many years later now, my mom still seems to believe that there is a braking pedal down there, and I would only smile - part of it about the memory, part of it appreciation. And also in knowing that I, more than once, stomped on the old Invisible Braking Pedal.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Smoke & Mirrors

Mirrors - the most amazing device ever discovered.

Mirrors never lie - even through a smoky haze. Never. Except for those distorted ones at funfairs. Those lie, but they aren't natural mirrors. They are the products of a distorted mind. But then, so are our perception of what we see in mirrors. We might flatter or insult ourselves based on what we see in mirrors. It has been long time overdue for me to look in a mirror. Not physically.

Mentally.

And I don't like what I see, and I don't think that the mirror is distorted.

My brother in law moved in with us and he is the mirror I look into. I never realised how lax I myself was/am. And how aimless my life has become. OK, I am still enthralled by Life, the universe and SCUBA diving, but what value does it have? And what value am I accumulating by treating people the way I do?

For the first time in my life I have a lot of sympathy for my parents - I was not and I am not much different. Pa, Ma, when you read this, please accept my appologies. Although you told me what I was doing to you, I couldn't understand at the time, as what you said was outside my frame of reference. I love you guys.

So, let this teach me to be a better person. It is amazing what you'll see if you only look in a good, clear mirror from time to time.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

The long, dark teatime of the soul

Such are Sunday afternoons - they are the long, dark teatime of the soul. As far back as I could remember, I hated Sunday afternoons.

It is a surreal time of the week - where time and space behaves differently. Space, all at once seems infinite, but it rushes in and tries to strangle you. Completely the opposite of the Infinite Perspective Vortex. Time, at the same time, drags and the clock seems to tick a wee bit faster. Except that on a Sunday afternoon, there are 120 seconds in every minute.

Colours seems dull to me on Sunday afternoons. Food has no taste, and although I take it in small quantities, it always make me feel bloated.

Sunday afternoons confines me to my own little universe. And I was never meant to be alone.

Then again... that may be why they invented the Sunday afternoon nap.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

'n Vis op droë grond

Aangesien die eerste terugvoer op my blog in Afrikaans was voel ek vry om 'n posting in Afrikaans op te sit. Ai, Afrikaans. Dit val op die tong soos warm heuning, soos likeur, soos goeie rooi wyn.

NB!!! Foto krediet: http://finn.smugmug.com/gallery/175538/1/6610116

Sommer met die intreeslag - vir enige iemand wat in SCUBA belangstel, besoek gerus www.submerge.co.za en teken in vir jou komplimentêre kopie - geldig vir die Aug/Sep en Okt/Nov uitgawes. Submerge is 'n nuwe SCUBA tyskrif vir die SA mark vir duikers deur duikers. As ek so mag sê, dis beslis die moeite werd!!!

Scuba foto's hoop ek volg binnekort. Ek kyk juis vandag na my foto's geneem op Aliwal Shoal in Desember 2005 - wat 'n belewenis. Vir die wat wil kyk na Aliwal Shoal foto's, helaas nie my eie nie, besoek gerus http://www.aliwalshoalscubadiving.co.za/photo.htm Onderwater fotografie is ongelukkig 'n duur stokperdjie - 'n ordentlike kamera alleen kan jou 'n minimum van omtrent R 4000 terugsit en 'n goeie strobe omtrent R 2500. Ek is nog op die disposable stadium, helaas, met gemengde resultate. Hou egter hierdie spasie dop, want ek sal van my foto's hier publiseer.

Daar is diegene wat wil weet waarom ons SCUBA. Die eenvoudigste antwoord wat ek aan kan dink is - OMDAT ONS KAN. Soos, waarom verken die mens die ruimte? Omdat dit daar is.

Verskillende mense kry verskillende dinge uit duik uit. Ek was, voor ek begin duik het, 'n kranige gholfspeler omdat ek gehoop het dat dit iets is wat ek en Leandi saam kan doen. Dit was nie waarna ons gesoek het nie - ek kan nie 'n bal reguit slaan nie en Leandi slaan soos 'n meisie - maar ek is nie teleurgesteld daaroor nie. Toe probeer ons SCUBA.

Ons het deur 'n vriendin van my niggie - nou een van my beste vriendinne - kontak gemaak met 'n instrukteur, en die res daarvan is geskiedenis. Ons het laat Julie in Pretoria by die De Jongh swembad ons PADI Openwater kursusse gedoen en ja... die gogga het gebyt. Meer as dit kan ek nie sê nie.

VIR MY PERSOONLIK gaan SCUBA duik oor die stilte en die vrede wat onder die water te vinde is. Stres los op in die water. Om eerlik te wees, was ek nog nie vanjaar in die water nie en ek voel dit aan my stresvlak en my "geestelike welstand". Ek kan nie wag vir die winter se mislikheid om die wyk te neem nie, dat ek net weer in die water kan kom. Vir ander mense is daar weer ander dinge. Om in die see te duik is heeltemal 'n ander lekkergoed as 'n binnelandse duik. Daar gaan dit oor die lewe en die kleur - die alien wêreld daar onder. 'n Wêreld sonder klank, sonder geweld, waar die natuur sy gang gaan. Ja, mens kan sien daardie wêreld het nie die gulsigheid van die mens ontsnap nie, maar dis tog op 'n manier gespaar. Want meeste mense kom nie daar nie... SCUBA duikers is oor die algemeen mense wat baie ingesteld is op die natuur, daarom kan die onderwater wêreld gespaar bly vir ons nageslagte. As niks anders 'n mens kan oortuig nie... duik EEN keer in jou lewe saam met dolfyne. Dis 'n lewensveranderende ervaring.

Om op te som oor duik kan ek sê wat valskermspringers sê...
Those who do can't explain & those who don't can't understand.
Of, in my eie woorde...
Jy het nog nie geleef tot jy geduik het nie.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

The Middle Eastern Crisis

The mid-eastern crisis scares me. I don't know why, but it does.

I am a Christian, so, I should have nothing to fear. It is just - eerily - feeling like the beginning of the end to me. The world is going mad, and now, clearer that ever before, the rifts in the global community are becoming very clear, as it was written... Even though I don't like Pres. George W. Bush, I am grateful that he has sided with Israel. And as much as I love Europe... their condemnation of Israel's action will have marked consequences for them.

As a person who has spent some time in Israel, there are some things I want to get off my chest. The first is that I believe that Israel belongs to the Jews. God said it, I believe it, that settles it. So, any calls or notions of a Palestinian state is a taboo to me. I am sorry for the people whose feelings I offend by my statement, but that is what the Bible says. Although Ismael is a descendant of Abraham, nowhere in the Bible does God make an promise ON TERRITORY with Ismael as he did with the House of Israel. So, ISRAEL belongs to the Jews and that's it.

I, living in South Africa and being exposed to a lot of global press, get a lot of different views on the current affairs in the Middle East. And what troubles me is that Israel is now called a terrorist state. By - look who's talking - Iran. Pardon my biases, but this is my blog. If you don't like what I'm saying, hit the "next blog" button. How could a nation, being tread on by the world for more than 2000 years, and bearing the brunt of man's fundemental xenophobic, terrorist tendencies, suddenly be called so when they finally get to claim what is theirs, as promised by God? My advise to nations is this: Accept it. Or be prepared to answer to God himself.

My heart goes out to "my" kibbutz - I volunteered on Kibbutz Ga'aton some years ago. They are stuck right in the line of the fire. Ga'aton is situated approximately 15 km north-east of the coastal town of Nahariyya and about 20 km south of the Lebanese border.

I say this into the void of cyberspace, but my friends on Ga'aton - even though you may not remember me, I remember you. My thoughts dwell on you constantly.

Hello, World...



I am new to blogging, and I wonder why I really thought a lot why I would want
one.

I thought that it would do me well to have somewhere to speak my
mind - not that I don't have that in my day to day life - but this is blissfully
anonymous.

On this blog I want to write about the things I think about -
life, the universe & scuba diving. Elaborated with some occasional writings... So, world. This is me. Enjoy!